I can’t fucking do this anymore. I am too worn down to even bullshit a paper anymore. I just want to cuddle up into someone’s arms and close my eyes all the time. bleh.

I am reading The Farming of Bones by Edwidge Danticat for my english class. It will very likely be the first book I have ever actually read for high school and, ironically, the last. Danticat is my kind of writer.

as usual words can’t explain how I feel right now. if I try to explain it it won’t come out right, all I know is that everything will settle sometime soon and summer will bring me some vitamin D and big waves if nothing else

lol boys suck why do we let them put spells on us… ah well we love em

sigh sigh womanhood

I guess all we can do is keep breathing and never forget to take care of ourselves. Nothing lasts forever, no one will always be there for you and there’s no point in pretending anything. Most of this shit sucks but some of it doesn’t and that’s why we’re not all already dead.

7 weeks until I can devour summertime mmm