remember when “hang out” actually meant “hang out” and not “fuck”?
just have to reblog again
I sort of do expect every boy in spain to look like this so I hope it’s true
sometimes (all the time) I have to step back from myself and all of these negative things I feel to remember
baltimore will always be there and so will a place to sleep at night whether it’s a feather bed or a floor in my down coat
there will always be nighttime walks and watermelon
It’s so nice
to wake up in the morning
and not have to tell somebody
you love them
when you don’t love them
you know when you don’t want someone to be harmed but you just want to watch them slowly fade away top to bottom into this mist so they’re never in your life again
you hear all the time that women are more “emotional,” that we “want a connection” to the people we’re having sex with, that we need to “care about” and “be cared about by” those people
the problem, for me, for many of the women I call my friends, women I like and dislike, whatever, is the build up. text me every day for a week, text me goodnight, how are you, call me beautiful.
and I don’t even like you really, you’re boring honestly, but who doesn’t like being called beautiful? you’re not the love of my life, I haven’t lusted after you for years, I don’t even care about you
"be careful of her she’ll fall in love with you"
have you ever been held close after, had your back rubbed, he plays with your hair and you hug for a little too long?
and then you see each other the next day and say nothing?
no more “you’re beautiful” or “how was your day?”
even if you didn’t like it, it was weird, he was bossy and it made you feel like a child, or you just aren’t into the same things, you’re like what the fuck did I do wrong?
and it’s all a trick ya know? because you’re great and you didn’t do anything wrong but it makes you mad anyway, so now you’re “emotional” and you “want a connection” and you’re like fuck is it all true?
"boys do this amazing thing where you don’t even like them but if they make you hate yourself enough then you’re like “well okay” and that is what having good game means"
at the end of the day you just gotta be like I’m a badass bitch ya know?
“Awake is like a soundtrack to a sunbaked road trip, capturing the inexplicable nostalgia one feels while imagining a new life in a new town.”
as a 20 yr old I intend to be
-less of an idiot